Stress

Gosh, I felt so stressed today, which I hate. I mean, HELLO, it's Saturday!! It's the weekend!! We had a great morning... we packed up the family and headed out to a group walking event sponsored by Corporate Challenge through Chris's work. The walk took place at a park and we walked with the mayor. Registration began at 8:30 am and he finally arrived about 9:20 am (I swear it was 90 degrees by then!!) Michael drank a bottle and passed out and believe it or not, Jake was very patient. It was awfully hot during the walk and this nice lady from Chris's work carried Michael for a majority of the way. That chunky monkey is heavy!! He had a cute little hat on to protect his head from the sun. Jake rode on the back of the stroller most of the way... making the walk a little more strenuous to say the least.. LOL!! Overall, it was a fun morning. When we got back to the house, Chris worked on random house fixer-upper things (painting, patching spots on the walls, etc.) and I cleaned. We thought for SURE, that Jake would nap due to the outing in the morning.. but NOPE!1 That boy ate like a pig (which is normal lately) and terrorized his brother. My mom came over so I could help her with her resume. It was a productive day.

I guess I just always feel like there is a million things to do and not enough time. It seems like during the week I just GO, GO, GO, and then Saturday comes and I have to keep GOING!! I love my children, my husband, and my house... and I love spending time with them. I wish I didn't have to keep up on the laundry, cleaning, and all the other "stuff" that I don't have time for during the week. I don't mean to sound like a big ole' cry baby. I know my anxiety and stress is self-induced.... LOL... I guess I just want everything to be perfect and I feel like it is my job to make it that way. I also realize that there is no easier solution than to just be PRESENT in my life. I know that being a stay-at-home mom isn't the answer. My husband is wonderful and truly gives 110% to our kids and keeping up the house. I know that the house will never be clean enough and the laundry will always wait. I don't want to look back on my life and wish I spent more time with my family.

Anyways, update on the boys....
Michael is getting his top two teeth in... poor baby. He is teething like a crazy man and will eat ANYTHING and everything. Hence the "bite" he gave to my thigh today. It wasn't hard, but boy, it sure did surprise me!! He's growing so big and strong, I swear, the boy will be in size 18 months in the next month!! (He's only 9 months old!)

Jake is known as Dr. Jeckyl Mr. Jake lately. So sweet, so smart, so funny... but so controlling and tempermental! Yikes!! Terrible two's are NOTHING!! Mr. Independent loves us, but hates us. Love his brother, but wants to antagonize him. Wants to do every single task himself, but refuses to ask for help, even if he knows he needs it. AHHHHH (that's me breathing....) None the less, he IS feeling better now after the surgery, which is good.

School is coming to a close, which is a nice thing. I'm so looking forward to having the month of July off. We are planning a little family vacation..... don't know details yet... but still excited!